Hello gentle readers,
Since I last saw you I have spent two weeks in a downtown neighborhood in SF, two weeks in Eastern Colorado, two weeks on the East Coast and a weekend in an enchanted forest. (Okay, okay...I was technically in 4 theaters in the Bay Area but I was kind of living in those worlds.) I've been busy with work and lost my motivation to follow the plan. I was doing fine till I had to work on two shows at the same time and I lost time to exercise and cook. Since then I have not really wanted to cook, since I remembered how good food that you don't cook tastes. And also when it has more fat in it than I am used to. I have also gained weight to prove that I have been eating out.
Let's get to the meat of it. I set a goal for myself around my sister's wedding. I realized how close I was and I freaked out. I think part of it had to do with how tired I was. I I've been down this road before. Very successfully loosing some weight, I freak out and then start gaining it again and normally I would keep gaining. This time I freaked out because I was looking at myself in the mirror and went down into the negative thinking place. "Even though I have lost so much weight and feel so much better, people who haven't seen me in a while will not even realize that I have lost any weight. They will just think I am fat." So I gave up. BUT, and this is a big but. I made myself go to Weight Watchers and weigh. I gained a bunch 2 weeks in a row.
And you know what, I didn't beat myself up about it. With the help of my roommate and my friend Leslie, I've bumped up my exercise and this week am tracking again. I lost a little bit this week, but I am so happy that I am going down and not up!! I'm hoping that with more exercise and tracking I can make these two weeks before the wedding super successful. I doubt that I will get to my "wedding goal" before the wedding but at least I'll be back on track.
Last week the topic of the meeting was summer goals and here are mine:
I want to loose 35 lbs total by Labor day.
I want to try a zoomba class and I want to swim a set in a lake.
wish me luck!
