Week one, day one.

Today, I did it. On my way home from a meeting in SF, I made a decision and drove to Weight Watchers. I sat in the parking lot and looked up via the app to see if it was open. I had to wait 15 minutes for it to open.  I had none of the "right clothes" with me and I didn't care. I went in straight to the scale. I didn't go to the bathroom first or take off any jewelry or even take off my socks. I was wearing jeans for heaven's sake. As has been my custom for some time, I didn't look at the scale.  I briefly looked at how much I had gained but then the printer broke and the sweet receptionist suggested that I stay for the meeting.  I declined as I had earlier made plans to do much needed laundry. (And I don't think I could have waited for an hour for the meeting to start.)

I got in the car and went to get groceries. I overloaded the hand basket but I wanted vegetables and healthy things. I got home, unloaded the loot and made some flower arraignments. I had a bit of time to wait for the quiche crust I had to defrost, so I opened up WW to see how much weight I had gained and look at the past 2 year's data.  I looked at a very lovely graph that is currently a valley rather than a downhill slope. I have not gained back all the weight I lost but I am not too far off.

I made quiche with some left over veggie shish kabob, ham and swiss cheese. This is only my second one but it looks divine. I'll do a taste test a breakfast tomorrow and let you know how it turns out. While the quiche was in the oven, I decided to make more food (red lentils) so that I can get the laundry done tomorrow after I eat dinner and won't have to worry about the cooking.

Quiche and in process Lentils

I think I really need to do a beginning of the week grocery store/cooking adventure.  It's amazing how much of the stress goes away when I do that. I have food, I can bring it with me, I know what I will eat and that it will be mostly healthy and I have not spent a million dollars on it. Funny, I think I did this a lot when I was being really successful at WW, before.




I have to do the things that will help me get out of the hole, if I can. Paying attention to what I am eating, Check. Groceries, Check. Food made, Check. Tomorrow! Laundry and maybe a walk?

I know that my depression can be a burden/ broken record but I will just say a little bit about it. I know that I have not gotten help recently and I know that I should.  But, this is an illness that I have. I know in concept that it will be so easy for me to call the doctor (YAY, health insurance) but in practice it is really hard for me to do that. It goes so quickly from fine/managing to hard to get out of bed (and sometimes taking a nap in the middle of the day when you should be working....).  I really appreciate your support and friendship (readership?)

Here's me earlier today wearing a kind of 50's outfit. :)

The goal I set for myself this week is to drink more water.

Wish me Luck!