I'm Back Baby!

(I had almost finished this post when my computer decided to turn off, so here's the abbreviated version.)

The last month, I have been having problems sticking to and having motivation to stay on program.  I've been kind of quiet on the blog and that is because I have been feeling kind of depressed that a.) I have been not getting the results I want, b.) the wedding was a bit stressful even though I tried to brush it off as not being so,  c.) I had a big case of the "Why do I have to do this? When everyone else doesn't".

Last week I had two big motivating factors to help me get back on track.  Over the two weeks before and after the wedding, I gained more weight than I have since I joined and it was kind of shocking to see it on the scale. The other moment was when I was eating most of a bag of chips and "giving myself a break from the program" I thought very clearly.  I am not enjoying this.  I don't want to eat this way. I missed walking.  I know that I feel better when I plan and eat healthier.  I am pro-active instead of re-active.  I am happier even though sometimes it is a pain in the ass.  I still struggle with the "Why me" part of it and I probably always will a little bit, but it is currently something I need to focus on and do,  for me.

I pretended that it was my first week again. I planned my meals, tracked, measured and weighed everything and chose more fruits and veggies.  I even cooked real meals which I had not done in a while and brought them to work with me.  Thanks to my roommate, we went on walks and I even did some Just Dance 3 without her one night.

Today, I was hoping for a small loss but I managed to loose 4.6lbs.  I am still kind of in awe of that.  It's amazing how following the plan works when you actually do it.  I'm glad that even though I have been sort of giving up I always went to my meeting and weighed in.  And when I was ready to get back on track I did it.   I'm getting closer to having lost the most weight I ever have on ww. Not the lowest I've ever weighed but the most lbs in one go round.  (Which is totally exciting but also terrifying. More on this next week.)

Here is a backwards copy of my weight record.

Here's me!  Back on Track!