Suprise gain blues.

Last week, after a very steady 6 weeks (or longer) of loosing or gaining 0.8lbs,  I gained 2 and a half pounds.  I didn't feel like I had gone too crazy the week before but in truth I didn't really track all of my points and I did go out to a dinner and have a cocktail the night before I weighed in.  I was a bit shocked but not super confused. This week, I had kinda hoped if I tracked super well and did a lot of exercise I would be able to do an impressive -3 or 4lbs in one week and finally get to -40lbs.  I did a ton of activity but didn't really track at the end of the week and in the end lost only 0.8 lbs. Which is the normal that I have been loosing.  BUT I AM PISSED.  Because I had a dream that I would loose a a lot without actually doing all the work. And now I am maybe acting out a bit because of it or at least I did yesterday. (I went to two parties and drank a few beers when there was a lot of foods I don't normally eat near by.)

As they have been rolling out all these new topics each week for WW in the new plan, I have been realizing that almost everything is something I do when I am focused on WW but do not always do when I am not.  It is a good reminder to do these things but also I am not really wanting to do everything. I have a bit of the "I don't wanna's" and the "why me's".

I've mentioned on the blog before about how in the success journal, Liz, the author and a real ww leader, talks about how motivation should be thought about as a clock. I really like this, especially as you can move from one part of the clock to the other in either direction.  When I started writing this, I was feeling kinda annoyed that I ate all my weekly points yesterday. I foolishly took a bunch of candy home from one of the parties and kind of can't stop thinking about it. When I have been depressed, stressed, sad, I used to binge on candy specifically anything peanut butter and chocolate and sour patch kids.  I have both of those things in my cabinet right now. If I didn't have them in the house I would not think two seconds about them.  (This is a good example of having good things in your house and not bad.) Anyway, I just re-read the section in the journal about motivation and she suggests using songs as motivators.  I have been loving Macklemore and Ryan Lewis and the song, "Can't Hold us" is my new buoy to combat the motivation drain.  It is catchy and I just want to dance when I hear it. :)

I think I also need to mention some sucesses! After a winter of not much exercise, I have been walking everyday and/or making it a big priority to get to 100% of my activity goal.  I have been planning most meals and last week I managed to eat all the food I made.  (Sometimes I make too much and wind up getting tired of the food. Not so this week as I managed to space out each meal really well!) Here's to adding more good things next week.

One of the things we do at the end of every meeting is write down a small goal for the week.  (If you write it down then you are more likely to actually do it.) I am going to write mine on the blog at the end with the rest of the weekly weight round up. 

This week's goal: To track all 7 days.
This week's total: -0.8 for a total of -38lbs.

 So far so good! Two days of 7 done.